there is a birthday party to attend this evening
birthday of someone i really cherish whom i got a red bag as a birthday present
obviously i enjoy the birthdaypersons' company!

got to get a cell phone.
people are gonna want to hear my voice!
i love it when people love me!

hot day...
is gonna get hotter
but i ain't gonna be here...
no way!
please god let me go on!!!
no embassy can get between me and my dreams!
congratulations on my lust for a new beginning!
i just wish i did not have to bring along my ass.

you've got mail
from someone you are gonna meet in exactly two weeks
"thought there is love in everything and everyone one you are so naive!!!"
sydney here i come
slleping on the couch for a couple of night
then have a single studio apartment!!!
huge deal
don't you think?

saturday sunday
summer house
sun burn
wet
too much fish
too much ice cream

i know i haven't done much for this new phase for a time
but the newest phase is about to begin on 13th of july i am going somewhere totally distant.

officially
i got a boyfriend!!
all weekend
and last night
a movie and some alone time.
i like it!

officially a masters' student ia m of today with an apartment of my own!
gosh it is going to be just amazing!

i am weird

weird night
somebody broke into my car
i had a long talk with my ex that was lovely and sweet
and i feel good
because i am going to sydney!!!

enrolled to the university of sydney
master of arts
congratulation
how did i make the choice is a different issue
just flipped a coin!

all i need to
is to find out if i steel rely want to
continue i don’t know if it’s to late
but i think it’s the best thing we can do
for both me and you

you steel be everything
i know that i wanted
and everything that i needed
but it doesn’t mean that this is the end
this is not the end

all i wants just a little more time
a little more time
just a little more time
all i wants just a little more time
a little more time
a little more time
to make up my mind

its not a bad thing
i would never do anything to hurt you
and i know you rely felt the same way to
i keep telling my self you didn’t mean to
but i forgive you

for you hurt me
but i rely hope that one day you will see
the reason i breathe is for you and me
but it doesn’t mean that this is the end
this is not the end

all i wants just a little more time
a little more time
just a little more time
all i wants just a little more time
a little more time
a little more time
to make up my mind

all i wanted was some time to make up my mind
ohh… and i do rely hope that we could work it out
cause love like ours is hard to find

ohh…

all i wanted was some time to make up my mind
ohh…

some people are nice.
some people seem nice.

monday what a lovely dayy!
got drunk at the "local".
wanted to go dancing but everywhere is closed.
what a lovely day!
so innocent.

i am the fire starter
the lover is the giver
oh what a lovely day!
finally i lost my mind
all the cute guys stole it and ran away and sold it to the devil
who is much smarter by now.

everyone is after everyone these days
i find it really ironic that women chase men more often!
ironic isn't it?
no it is not.
there are more women then men in urban areas!
gosh too much sociology kills
:)

when the caged bird sings
it sound as i do
and feels good!
at least to the performer.

oh god!
a message and a call from a boy once i loved very much...
and not being there then he was but where i always be but not only for this one time.
confusing right!
so i was.
and then the next night so many cute guys.
all coming onto me
felt just so good
was just what i needed.
now i am back on track hopefully.
but must decide fast which one i really want because got only a month to fall in love and fall out of love

this pain is like nothing else.
i wish i was dead.

mayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
please be home.
i beg you
please just be home.
or if you're gone
come backkkkkkkkkkkk!

the color of the night
i wish you were here with me in my bedroom on my bed staring out the window to the most amazing blue my eyes have ever witnessed.

oh my God!
i never believed in fortune telling since tonight!
i was told that someone was going to propose to me and he did so tonight.
this is such an unbelievable experience for me.
may be the school i am gonna go to is already know too.
my man my kids my affairs .... everything.
feels so weird.

sunbeam shone, mousy girl on the end pew
you'd stay home, oh if only they let you
le pastie de la bourgeoisie

municipal pool, you're a junior life saver
but you're friends are all serious ravers
le pastie de la bourgeoisie
reading judy blume
but you came too soon

you're too tall, much too tall for a boyfriend
they run and hide, from your buck tooth and split ends
don't be scared, like the books you've read
you're the heroine
you'll be doing fine

wouldn't you like to get away?
bestowing the memory of good and evil
on the ones you left behind
the heartless swine

and you love like nobody around you
how you love, and a halo surrounds you
le pastie de la bourgeoisie
in the autumn cool
say cheerio to school

listen dear, i've been watching you lately
if i said all these things you would hate me
le pastie de la bourgeoisie
at the church bazaar
i nearly went too far

wouldn't you like to get away?
kerouac's beckoning with open arms,
and open fields of eucalyptus
westward bound

wouldn't you like to get away?
give yourself up to the allure of
catcher in the rye
the future's swathed in stars and stripes

get me away from here i'm dying!

belle and sebastian
really said what i meant

ooh! get me away from here i'm dying
play me a song to set me free
nobody writes them like they used to
so it may as well be me
here on my own now after hours
here on my own now on a bus
think of it this way
you could either be successful or be us
with our winning smiles, and us
with our catchy tunes, and us
now we're photogenic
you know, we don't stand a chance

oh, i'll settle down with some old story
about a boy who's just like me
thought there was love in everything and everyone
you're so naive!
they always feature sorry endings
they always get it in the end
still it was worth it as i turned the pages solemnly, and then
with a winning smile, the boy
with naivety succeeds
at the final moment, i cried
i always cry at endings

oh, that wasn't what i meant to say at all
from where i'm sitting, rain
falling against the lonely tenement
has set my mind to wander
into the windows of my lovers
they never know unless i write
"this is no declaration, i just thought i'd let you know goodbye"
said the hero in the story
"it is mightier than swords
i could kill you sure
but i could only make you cry with these words"

i was five and you were six
we rode on horses made of sticks
i wore black, you wore white
you would always win the fight

seasons came and changed the time
i grew up, i called you mine
you would always laugh and say
remember when we used to play

music played and people sang
just for me the church bells rang
after echoes from a gun
we both vowed that we'd be one
now you're gone i don't know why
sometimes i cry
you didn't say goodbye
you didn't take the time to lie

bang bang, you shot me down
bang bang, i hit the ground
bang bang, that awful sound
bang bang, my baby shot me down.

i never hid myself behind computer screens or typingboards or mouses.
i was always out there meeting real people
fullfilled with some real experiences
is that why i am not a bit scared but horrified!?

a futureteller told me my future
not just some futureteller
this one told me
a big white heart in a castle
standing by a symbol like the one i imagined
smiling bcs happy to see my luck widening its doors to the world...

see the pyramids along the nile
watch the sunrise from a tropic isle
just remember, darling all the while
you belong to me

see the marketplace in old algiers
send me photographs and souvenirs
just remember when a dream appears
you belong to me

i'll be so alone without you
maybe you'll be lonesome too
and blue

fly the ocean in a silver plane
see the jungle when it's wet with rain
just remember 'til you're home again
you belong to me

i'll be so alone without you
maybe you'll be lonesome too
and blue

fly the ocean in a silver plane
see the jungle when it's wet with rain
just remember 'til you're home again
you belong to me