there are some songs that just have to touch you as they go by
and there are some songs that never go by.

if i was water or fire
if i never talked but was a stone
would you still play with me?

watch the sunrise say your goodbyes off we go some conversation no contemplation hit the road car overheats jump out of my seat on the side of the highway baby our road is long your hold is strong please don't ever let go oh no i know i don't know you but i want you so bad everyone has a secret but can they keep it oh no they can't driving fast now don't think i know how to go slow where you at now i feel around there you are cool these engines calm these jets i ask you how hot can it get and as you wipe of beads of sweat slowly you say 'i'm not there yet!'

god let me meet someone
someone just like me

movies touch me very often because they are all about those living far far away, and now i am one. al these years i never enyojed the local music, never enjoyed songs in my native language. now i know why, just so that i would not listen to them when i am so far, i would not listen to them so that i would not touch me like those movies that used to touch me when i was not far far away but the people were.

there is nothing local about me now that i see myself living somewhere so far so different.
everyone said that i would get homesick, everyone said don't go.
i am glad i never ever listen to anyone.
i am glad i am here through this experience of my life.
may be even bigger experiences are going to come and meet me in the future.
for now this is who and where i am.
life is though i used to say.
now i know it was always me making it tougher.

going away for christmas early tomorrow morning
kind of excited a bit anxious and very enthusiastic
these days have been very very occupying lately.
every weekend i am staying somewhere else.
this is what abroad experience is all about I believe.
sometimes i fell like just reading on the front porch.
sometimes i feel like reading at the beach.
but mostly i just live the life given rather then reading others'...

i love this city, wish beloveds were here too.

everyday something new is coming up! i am glad to be around! feeling free, kind of.
there are still things on my mind, dissapointment, future aspirations, hopes and believes...
just like any other ordinary person.
but this journey is one that those ordinaries would not go on with!
coward freaks!

i am where i wanna be
i wish my beloved did not have to go home and could stay here with me.

for the first time ever i gambled today
and won!!
the reason behind me losing my lovers has just occured to my mind; gambling.
the loser in club has become the winner in casinos i guess.
new phase!!!