sometimes you just need to lay down and wonder
the thoughts and dreams that come to your mind are real wishful thinking
what we want at that point is what we really truely want
it is what we have put our hearts into

life is not worth living if there is no misery no challenges
what is fulfilling happens as you are standing up after a fall

all these years i've been writing here, naming it "new phase" thinking the new phase was then.
looking back all that i've been through, i realize it is right about now that the new phase is about to begin.

here is the test:
does something that you truely want come true or is it just plain hurtful to put your heart into it?

bohemian bourgeois is what i long to become
whereas if i was one i would only be embarrassed to say how

dreaming dreamy dream

acceptance: ability to accept all as whoever they are
i lack that as well.

i have lost the ability to enjoy today
due to my high expectations from tomorrow