i think it's amaziiiiiiiiiiiiiiinggggggggggggggggg

finally,
I'm free.

focus focus focus focus focus focus focus focus focus

ordered more books
haven't read even those i got yet

i am unbelievable!!
nominated myself to the election in Supra!!
we'll see how it goes ....

i am looking forward to the next two weeks to go by succesfully by which i mean no trouble!

I slept on a couch last night
one of those for only for person to sit on it not to sleep on it
quiet painful don't you think!
lightning of my room still does not work!
i go out too much again
got to study really focused today

ice cream
rain
e-mails
phone calls
feels good
but no studyinggg hass takeeen plaaceee stilll!!!

cleaning.again could not wake up.
am i sick?
think got a cold.
well not that bad.
will be fine by tomorrow!

finally decided..
still got no ice cream.
but got a busy schedule!

australian idol sucks!

got to decide on a research question
specify the dissertation topic
actually all i want is some ice cream
this has been going on since thursday!

feeling better
getting rid of those you don't enjoy
reading more for career
loving more the ones deserving
feeling home on my own
programmes made for upcoming couple of nights
just hold on dear
you are doing it
a life of your own
free will has arrived

to pretend no one can find, the fallacies of morning rose, forbidden fruit, hidden eyes, courtesies that i despise in me take a ride, take a shot now. `cause nobody loves me, it's true, not like you do.
covered by the blind belief, that fantasies of sinful screens, bear the facts, assume the dye, end the vows no need to lie, enjoy, take a ride, take a shot now. `cause nobody loves me, it's true, not like you do.
who oo am i, what and why? `cause all i have left is my memories of yesterday, ohh these sour times. `cause nobody loves me, it's true, not like you do.
after time the bitter taste, of innocence decent or race, scattered seed, buried lives, mysteries of our disguise revolve, circumstance will decide. `cause nobody loves me, it's true, not like you do

here i go out to sea again the sunshine fills my hair and dreams hang in the air gulls in the sky and in my blue eyes you know it feels unfair there's magic everywhere look at me standing here on my own again up straight in the sunshine no need to run and hide it's a wonderful, wonderful life no need to hide your face it's a wonderful, wonderful life sun in your eyes the heat is in your hair they seem to hate you because you're there and i need a friend oh, i need a friend to make me happy not stand here on my own look at me standing here on my own again up straight in the sunshine i need a friend oh, i need friend to make me happy not so alone look at me here here on my own again up straight in the sunshine

there is so much i want to write to those i love
but words are not enough
it is not that they are not with me near me right now but that
i could not tell what has happened anyway.

i wish i knew myself better
do i feel the way i feel right now really or is it because i am drunk?
i might be confusing feelings
or i might be confusing me with someone else.

cannot get thourgh
occupied
i fell for the wrong guy again.
why do i do this to myself
why do you do this to me
i could have a very nice relationship with my boyfriend
did you just have no choice but to make me fall for you
well congratulations you managed to turn my life into a disaster...

got drunk again again again again
i listen to music
which is limited with my laptop...
and get drunk
not on my own of course there are people out there who also have troubles and miseries...
wish i wasn't one.

wish could start over