no reply yet...
but soon the end will come
which is not mine nearly..

hi cousin!

i wrote the toughest sentences of my life.
in tears.
i wish i was someone else...
just so that i didn't have to write those lines..
please thoughts go a.w.a.y!

i wonder how
i wonder why
really all i do now is to wonder...

chinese, a movie, some love and affection.
touchy staff ha?
i fell so too.
so confused about how to be who and when...
scared to see him and more than that to know that he is around.
so scared.
i am going to a brunch with an unusual friend tomorrow...
wish me luck.

the white out there is so comforting, peaceful

refreshing
hopefull....
wish it was me over the roofs....

i love the view of my apartment!!
my apartment!!
my view!!!
my friends! my books,cd's,jokes, memories!!
oh my god!!
i'm a grownnn up!!
f.u.c.k.

i love the white out there
just like my name
i got myself a date for monday
and really excited about it
tonight i got to and taste salade at my best friends' house
if it's bad i still got to eat so wish me luck
home parties rock!

my life sucks.
but i make it worth dying for.
thank u thank u

i just woke up.
spent the night in a disco fight.
but still had so much fun.
having a lover is not enough for me it seems.
i want more.
sorry.
gonna be out tonight either.
i am a bitch i'm a saint!!
i'm a bitchy saint...

love ain't no good for no one.
paranoid has began.
its eating me from inside.
what happens now? is the question.
i don't ask whether to be or not be.
because what's the point if u ain't gonna "be"?

you either pay for "good" in advance or afterwards.
but you gotta pay.
it's a market ( of happiness ) which distincts itself from other markets by its lack of demand-supply relations.
there is just demand....

so what happens when you do something but never realize the consequences?
what happens when you know the consequences and still do that thing?
what happens when you just let things go in such a way that you follow your desires without considering the price you might have to pay?
what happens when you won't have to pay any prices and still get what you want even though you act how your feeling make you act?
the latter would definitely be my choice.

so we maybe gorgeous
so we maybe famous
come back when we're getting old

cover us in chocolate
sell us to the neighbours
frame us on a video

clone us in a test tube
sell us to the multitude
guess that's the price of fame

she likes the black one
he likes the the posh one
cute ones are usually gay

here we come this is our destiny calling
we're freaks
this is our destiny calling
unique
this is our destiny calling now

don't believe the adverts
don't believe the experts
everyone will sell our souls

get a little wiser
get a little humble
now we know that we don't know

tell us when our time's up
show us how to die well
show us how to let it all go

here we come this is our destiny calling
we're freaks
this is our destiny calling
unique
this is our destiny calling now

some fat cat's playing the roulette with lives
this game is fixed it's all a lie
some fat cat's playing the roulette with lives
this time is good, there's no straight lines
some fat cat's playing the roulette with lives
forget myself we're all entwined
there's no straight lines

here we come this our destiny calling
we're freaks
this is our destiny calling
unique
this is our destiny calling now

here we come this our destiny calling
we're freaks
this is our destiny calling
unique
this is our destiny calling now

this is our destiny calling
now

every time i hear my song on the radio i keep moving closer and closer to u

such a joke!
so incredable!
not so shocking!
but a little dazzling!
it's my life!

big in japan!!!!

this bad girl has her birthday today.
things do change.
and this phase is about to end where it began in the first place.
but people don't.
i wish myself a new age full of lust and happiness.

i had some friends over the whoooleee day.
now i am all dressed up and gonna go out to have fun!
having a car did not make me a better girl.
uuuhhh bad girl bad girl!
i have a final first thing tomorrow morning.
but nothing can stop me!!

you know what i love about myself the most!
friends!!!
i am hell of a good friend, and hell of a scary foe that all i got is friends.
i like it.
my birthday is coming, and i feel more and more special everyday.
my ex-lovers call me. do u know why? because they know i never mean to do any harm although i suck sometimes.
i know myself.
at least better than i know some of u.
i am no way stepping back.
this journey is mine, and gonna stay that way.

things begin to suck again nowadays.
too many flashback come into mind.
am i scared?
may be.
should be ( most probably! )
but i am strong!!
i don't wanna be where i was in the first place.
if i am gonna move forth then it's fine i'll definitely move my ass.
but what's the point if i ain't gonna get somewhere new better different?
no point, right?

excitement is good for health!!
my hormones work like they never did!!!
total excitement!

i got myself many new staff in these last couple of days
including a car.
am i more of a grown up now?
or still sixteen?
the latter one i guess.
sorry dude.

when the lights go out
my soul fulfills itself
i fell really weird right now
as if i'm in a movie of some sort
am i?

i got my "self" done.
does this suppose to mean that i am hoping for anyhing coming?
just a question, no answers expected.
and i realized that i fing vincent cassel very very very attractive.
just a small notice.