time is going by so fast
i cannot believe how long it has been
it is actually not good that all my special dates are same dates with festivals and holidays, because this challenges my memory from forgetting things i do not wanna have in mind anymore

italian film festival
cute cute cute

new decision
new phases
new beginning
if there were no new ends all this would never have happened
why am i stuck on few people
why still wonder still think still wanna make up for left behinds
because i am growing
i guess

dreams dreams dreams
i know i sound patheticly poetic
but this is what life made out of me
thinking about the old days that won't be back
as if they were amazing or anything close to perfection
whereas today is new and fresh and naive
thinking yesterday wondering about tomorrow
today is just dead.
by now.

i wonder if other people screw up as often as i do
i wonder if other people screw up at all

got to do better tomorrow
i really want to get done with this.

feeling much more better
i really don't give a shit about these last few days anymore
it seems i can be pushed too far also.

everything is out in the open now
i feel much better
this is the kind of person i am
i cannot be any other way.
everything has to be out in the open
rather than a problem in my subconciousness.

new beginning
i love new beginnings.
i wish they worked out so that i would not need them
in the first place.

i am such a failure to myself.

i am really living in sydney
i realized that tonight
i have become one of everyone
and of course it brings along many things
to be a local ...

too many plans again!!
beach, canberra, friday night party, late shopping night....
when will the plans concerning uni will come true I wonder.

i was not sad
but mad.
then wondered why
and it got worse
i mean the madness.

great grandmother passed away this morning
so they told me.

again back to where it all first began
the same mood
same timing
starving but for something else
craving for the feeling

night of june.
when will a love that broad will find me?
am i suppose to be in search?
could not sleep all night, staring at the ceiling at a strangers bed.
what happens if such an experience never finds me again
what am i suppose to do where am i suppose to stand so that my life intersects with his
he who is not the one
but the someone

got to study, but again as soon as i open my eyes see the daylight i cannot hold myself from going out!
almost two weeks of vacation and i read nothing.
congratulationsss:))