well then is it all about stopping writing here
there has been month i wrote nothing
not on purpose it just did not come up
and now i write again.
i thought i broke the chain
well i guess it was bigger and harder than i thought to begin with.
defining the problem well is the biggest step that would take you to the solution closer than u can imagine.
but sometimes we cannot see what is right underneath our noses.
a solution.
a relief.
a lover.
is that all we look for?
2006/10/19
tonight is the night when all sins are forgiven if you just ask for it.
what else could anyone ask for?
I think I would ask for all my wishes to come true somehow.
this huge power of creation might do some good to those created in the first place.
where is the wrong i do? I am not saying the wrong i did because i know i am still doing it.
no doubt! no worries!
since i am still fine with my wrongs, then it is not to rush.
may be it is just time i need.
this blog was meant to keep my mind clean as i write during a phase when i was lonely.
since then i am lonely.
the harder i try the deeper this loneliness gets.
what to do what to do?
what else could anyone ask for?
I think I would ask for all my wishes to come true somehow.
this huge power of creation might do some good to those created in the first place.
where is the wrong i do? I am not saying the wrong i did because i know i am still doing it.
no doubt! no worries!
since i am still fine with my wrongs, then it is not to rush.
may be it is just time i need.
this blog was meant to keep my mind clean as i write during a phase when i was lonely.
since then i am lonely.
the harder i try the deeper this loneliness gets.
what to do what to do?
2006/10/16
2006/10/12
here i am back to where i first began.
i hope this blog is being some use to someone out there.
considering the fact that i keep repeating my mistakes, this is no use to me.
once i though writing helped me understand better whatever i wrote.
i got the new job. actually i am at my new office my new desk...etc.
but still old me. what is this obsession i got about changing, old & new; whatever all bullshit.
i met a nice guy the saturday before. we spent the night together in a weird way, with a third person sleeping on the same bed with us and no kissing since we had not eaten by the time we started to touch and cuttle... so we ended up uniting in a weird way. i thought of leaving it all there in his apartment but as i rushed out of the door he asked for my msn address and i gave it to him.
what a mistake.
oh woman just leave it there alright i said to myself the day after. because i ended up obssessing with msn. i spent all that time on the net at my ex-offices talking about idiotic stuff to unnecessary people. and now no msn at work!! great news right :(
i spent 6,5 hours on the msn on the wednesday after our union.
since then i got a new phone number at home and cable internet connection. all i got to do is to get the wireless modem.
anyway the summary is; once everything is ready what is to come then?
am i gonna end up waiting to talk to him on the msn?
i wonder if he thinks about me at all?
what a classic scene...
god help me if i am to rush myself into anything ever again, but the thing is if i don't rush then nothing happens....
i hope this blog is being some use to someone out there.
considering the fact that i keep repeating my mistakes, this is no use to me.
once i though writing helped me understand better whatever i wrote.
i got the new job. actually i am at my new office my new desk...etc.
but still old me. what is this obsession i got about changing, old & new; whatever all bullshit.
i met a nice guy the saturday before. we spent the night together in a weird way, with a third person sleeping on the same bed with us and no kissing since we had not eaten by the time we started to touch and cuttle... so we ended up uniting in a weird way. i thought of leaving it all there in his apartment but as i rushed out of the door he asked for my msn address and i gave it to him.
what a mistake.
oh woman just leave it there alright i said to myself the day after. because i ended up obssessing with msn. i spent all that time on the net at my ex-offices talking about idiotic stuff to unnecessary people. and now no msn at work!! great news right :(
i spent 6,5 hours on the msn on the wednesday after our union.
since then i got a new phone number at home and cable internet connection. all i got to do is to get the wireless modem.
anyway the summary is; once everything is ready what is to come then?
am i gonna end up waiting to talk to him on the msn?
i wonder if he thinks about me at all?
what a classic scene...
god help me if i am to rush myself into anything ever again, but the thing is if i don't rush then nothing happens....
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